Just Because

As related by the wonderful Sunbeam teacher Sister Jensen.
A few Sundays ago, the lesson in Sunbeams was about our physical bodies. Sister Jensen asked each of the kids to name their favorite body part. Leah has issues with keeping her church shoes. Normally she or her teacher bring them to me in the Primary Room. So this particular Sunday, she had removed her shoes in class. When asked what her favorite body part was, she looked over herself carefully and proudly declared: "My Sparkly Toes!"

I was really hoping to have a baby this week, but much to my surprise YET AGAIN, I am NOT in control!!! I feel bad for Dr B who has to put up with me. There's this delicate balancing act going on between the health of the baby, the size of the baby, my health, my wants, his reservations, and his recommendations. It was a completely different story when I had Leah. I wanted it to be the same. Now I don't know what to expect and a little fearful of what will happen. 9 months of worrying, I thought this last part would be simple. It's not the doctor's fault. He can only know so much. My body's not cooperating either, and I'm convinced my body doesn't understand how this is all supposed to work. I'm trying to put all my faith into Heavenly Father, who ultimately controls the situation. Why can't I just LEARN already?!