The big 3-0. It's been strange. Whenever I told someone who was older than me, I got a slew of different reactions. "Eh, you're just a baby" or "Just wait till you hit 40!" I had more than one person tell me that they bawled their eyes out on their 30th, declaring that their life was over. Lindsie, or was it Chad (ha! I've already got you guys confused!), said it best: "It feels a lot like yesterday, doesn't it?" That's the perfect way to describe it.
Still, it is a milestone. I remember being 20ish and thinking about everything I would have completed, accomplished, finished, become once I hit 30. Here's what I came up with:
-I expected to be done having children. Although nothing's set in stone, I really don't think I'm there. And to go along with that:
-I expected to have my body into post-children shape. The good shape. No comment.
-I expected to be done with school. And I am. For now. I thought Chris would, too. OK new goal: before HE turns 30!
-I expected to have a new short haircut. CHECK! Just barely! Most moms I know, who started out with long hair with 1 or 2 kids, ultimately chopped it off as they matured.
-I expected to be, not a star chef, but exceptional in preparing a wide variety of fabulous dishes and desserts. Still working on that.
-I expected to have returned to France by now. Yeah. Someday. Someday.
No, I don't have 30. I may have expected myself to have a list of 30, but I don't. And I'm okay with that.
I think I am growing, even if it's slow. As a wife, as a mother, as a child of God. I am learning to not let things bother me. To cherish my little monsters, because they have grown up too too fast. I am learning to be more dependent on Heavenly Father and relinquish my will to His. I am being sweeter to my husband and trying to dispose of sarcasm and criticism. I am learning patience, but also the need to treasure and capture every moment that I have with those I love. I am learning about sacrifice and gratitude. Of loyalty and consistency.
So, for the next 30 years I have a lot to keep busy with.
Happy Halloween!
2 years ago
2 comments:
I'm glad you aren't done with kids yet. I feel like the only person who doesn't want to be done with kids before she's 30.
I think you are great. You are trying to be better every day, and I think that's what makes a person become the best they can be.
You are a great example to me of that. And HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Happy Happy Birthday Kimmy dear. Hey, I am all over you, me, and mom in the marathon. You will get your post baby body in no time!!
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